Can I go back?!

I physically got into Atlanta around 4 hours ago but I'm now patiently waiting for my heart to catch up. A couple workers, some Balinese childen and an eighteen year old who would rather die then deny Christ, have stolen my heart and won't give it back. To say that the past eleven days were life changing would be the understatement of the century. It was evident that God hand picked me for the trip, more for how it would change me, and less for what I could do to change people.

Due to security and safety reasons, I am unable to put details of certain humbling and mind blowing situations God ordained while I was in Bali, however you're more than welcome to shoot me a text or phone call if your curiosity gets the best of you! I can, however, tell everyone the story of a young woman who chose Christ over the Hindu gods she'd worshiped all her life. After a year of hearing the gospel and being poured into by some incredible women of God, she was confronted with the challenge that she needed to make a choice. It was obvious she'd really already made the decision, just needed to say it out loud with witnesses! :) She was asked repeatedly, "Are you sure?!", not for lack of knowledge but for the shear fact that the cost of her choosing spiritual LIFE could quite possibly mean physical DEATH, even at the hands of her own father. The day we left, the plan her father had told her was that she would be tied up and beaten by her family and other people in her village unless she denied the name of Jesus. She would then be kicked out of her village if she still claimed HIS name!! When we asked her how she was, her continual response was, "I'm okay, I have Jesus!" and typically a "Hallelujah" followed!

What a powerful, mighty, awesome, HOLY, mind blowing God we worship! What was done in her heart had NOTHING to do with anything of this world but was a divine intervention in a young girls heart, who was open to answering YES to His call. Looking into her eyes, even when they were full of tears, she had no fear, because she knew that her God was with her!!!

Why do I, in my comfortable life, not have faith that God will carry me through situations when a young woman is willing to give her life for her King?! I have such little faith. However, I have been inspired to the fullest to run hard after my King, and bask in His glory for I do NOT deserve His love and mercy. I do not deserve His help in situations, having turned from Him more times than not. But HE LOVES ME, the same way He loves that precious Balinese girl and I enjoy the thought of running hard towards the cross, knowing she's right there next to me! :)

Matthew 17:20....
He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."

xoxo, va