Beautiful Faith

Faith is trusting even when you don't want to trust and believing even when you don't want to believe.

Never in my life have I really trusted God to take care of things...which sounds so crazy, seeing that he did create the world and everything in it. My control freak self has always gotten in the way and my day planner became my idol. If something wasn't written down in the planner, it didn't get done. No matter how incredibly important it was. My to do lists controlled how I functioned, and to get really embarrassing, most days I would sit in class planning out, hour by hour, how I would spend my day. Sad, I know. To me, I could do far better than God could because I was organized and structured.

HOWEVER, this past month I have really focused on the statement "To let go and let God". He really does provide. When I threw out the hour by hour plan and the "life laid out til I'm 80" plan and all the other plans that controlled my life, He showed up and lined things up. When I stopped chasing certain things and really started listening to Him... things just started happening.

Some of these things I have been stressing about that He has provided, just in the past 72 hours are;
-A place to live in San Diego, I am living with an older couple who have graciously opened their home to me for those ten weeks
-An internship with Auburn Christian Fellowship for the next school year (more details to come!!)
-An incredible prayer meeting with the team I am going to Bali with, that calmed many fears and challenges we might face
-A fantastic weekend with my best friend, who isn't a believer, that started to ask questions!! :)

As soon as I just let Him have control of these things, He opened doors and showed me, exactly, almost in plain English, which doors I needed to walk through. I am so excited about all these things and look forward to sharing more wonderful testimony with yall!!

"What is needed for happy effectual service is simply to put your work into the Lord's hand, and leave it there. Do not take it to Him in prayer, saying, "Lord, guide me, Lord, give me wisdom, Lord, arrange for me," and then arise from your knees, and take the burden all back, and try to guide and arrange for yourself. Leave it with the Lord, and remember that what you trust to Him you must not worry over nor feel anxious about. Trust and worry cannot go together."

xoxo, va